wishful thinking.

i grew up with Carpenters, did you?

i love this song to the bones. back then, music was all about love, wishful thinking, everlasting love, all i want is to hold your hand and to be there for you, joy.

these days, drugs, whores, being cool in a bad way, blings, money, FAME (which pretty much destroys yourself in the end if you're not able to handle it).

or its pretty much like this;

i love you but i love her even more so what if we stay together babe we could have some threesome once in a while i'd fuck you and you'd suck her pussy and she'll moan in the face and sometimes we could have some orgy party with others but baby dont let it get to you because you know you're the only one for me im sorry that ive left you aside from all the fame that i had and i got taken away... and it goes on.

fuck it! but, there are good ones still! praise em baby!

here's what i wanna talk about today.

religion.

its something so sensitive that at times people become a tad bit too defensive.

every other religion have got their good way of teaching and so on. sorry no pics this time around!

so i'm buddhist (god please tell me why i keep typing buddshit instead of buddhist wtf), but i've never been one that actually take the effort to learn and understand more about it. what more keeping the tradition going on.

i went to a traditional ceremony, its my second time around if i'm not mistaken, where you hold a joss stick, lotus wax candle (not everyone but i did), 70cents (girls). then you'll walk up to a bridge (like a mini pedestrian bridge), get blessed by the holy water and stamp (on your shirt).

that's not all. there's more to it.

at the very beginning of the ceremony, families would arrive much earlier to pray before the ceremony takes hand.

when the clock strikes at the perfect moment, they then started their chanting and playing the traditional instruments. its REALLY loud. you'll have to be very observant to see whats the whole ceremony about.

possession.

it has been inherited by generations and generations for decades, its amazing how it is still happening up to date.

so they say you've got to be pure enough to be possessed by the god, all kinds of god.

some would be rolling all over the floor, swaying their head, shaking their leg really fast, etc.

they'll behave really weird (they act like how the god is believed to be) once the god is in their body. they'll bless the bridge and families, they'll give you advice and so on.

there were so much going on that i got confused and just stood at the corner observing everyone that has been consistently keeping up with this tradition for all their life.

so my question is, is this all an act, a myth, or is this true?

my experience was freaky, i felt. OH, not to forget how annoyed i was.

the queue was a mess and it was superbly long, these people would just act like they're talking and smiling to the sky and ta-daaaa! you got pushed like 5 people behind the line! WTF! i was pissed mad. i thought you were suppose to behave, WHERE ARE YOU MORALE VALUES PEOPLE?! you're in a temple?! anyhow, that didn't just happen once nor twice. yes. imagine how annoyed i was. you MUST be barefooted while waiting in line. holy crap. it was wet.. grass.. mud.. soil.. please. save. me. LOL. it was awful and i couldn't stop imagining that i'll have some worm in my body carried by dogs like i watch in discovery channel. okay i must stop that now or else i won't be sleeping tonight.

when it was my turn, i got stopped by the god in human form, then this girl and a few old ladies came next to me (jumped queue, DUH!), if you were instructed by the god to cut my line, just let me know. stop pushing me off to the side! its so rude! she then got up before the god told her to and wow did she get some good ol' embarrassment. you deserved it!

after i crossed the bridge, you're suppose to leave some (different amount for male/female) in a bucket. this old man told me to put it in the bucket filled with water and flower which was the "blessing water" for the guan yin to sprinkle on the bridge passerby. so i did, put the coins into the bucket. she gave me a very displeased facial emotion. i freaked out! lol.

good experience i'd say.

PS; i got a job a day after crossing the bridge after four months of being jobless and two months of job hunting, not to mention being rejected continuously!

next post up is about my project for #japan. i hope some of you could really help me out here.

many thanks!